I love late nights and I love early mornings. There, another conflict in me, in a good way.
I love the smell of early morning. You can smell the temperature when you are out early in the morning, looking at the sky and taking a breath in. You can smell the Eucalyptus, the grass, and other greens. I love the color of the air. You can hear the birds loud and clear. I wonder what are they talking about? Are they planning the day? I love the sound of a big trucks passing somewhere on some road nearby. It makes me think of hard working people, or ones who love early mornings too. Either way, I like them. Reminds me of Life and takes me into the present. I love the fresh look of flowers as if they were resting all night and just got done taking a shower! Once in a while you see another person walking, riding a bike, doing something. They chose early morning too. They are always friendly. Yap, we are ready to step in the Life that is in front of us and hopefully by design.
Then again, I LOVE late nights. You can almost hear the silence. Listening closely, it sounds like the little beings who also reside in your house are talking or busy doing stuff. Or, may be it is a buzz noise of all this electrical stuff around us?? All the stuff plugged in (I have no idea about what really physically is going on with electrical stuff – i am just saying ?” I love the darkness of the sky. The darker it is, the nicer the moon and the stars look. Really shinny. And, the longer you look at them, the more you find. Oh, and I love the interfering of a blinking airplane’s lights. Love them. Its just the right touch for the beautiful background. You watch them until they disappear. And, you wonder: where are they going? And, the very melow breeze – refreshing. I love hearing the cars driving by. Going home from a great party, or coming back from work? Whatever the answer, I like it. It reminds me of Life again – going on. Sitting in quiet, thinking, Planning the tomorrow, the next day, and more…
So, what’s me to do? I have decided to breakdown my routines so I can be flexible to enjoy both early mornings and late nights. Some days I wake up early mornings (like when I was in Vipassana Center where I woke up every single day for 10 days at 4 am, and sleeping no sooner than 11 ish the night before??) And, some days, I stay up late and wake up later in the morning. The problem is when I sleep late and need to wake up early! Another problem is that I do feel guilty when I sleep in! I am working on it, but haven’t mastered it yet. Perhaps I have issues with routines and repeats, not including practicing. I respect practicing – it shows me progress and that’s a good high. Just not always at the same time.
How about you?